I have a bit of an Internet and social media addiction. I am always on my phone or computer (though I’m pretty good about leaving it out of social situations). I can’t use it in moderation and never really have. It’s a distraction, occasionally in a beneficial way, but generally it keeps me from really being present.
What a bad Buddhist.
What an in attentive Momma.
What a waste of time.
I don’t like it and I’ve worked on this before. I’ve closed my Facebook account for long stretches on at least two occasions. This time, instead of closing my account, I deleted it off my phone. I also deleted instagram and tumblr. But because my phone only works with wifi (I have a crappy phone for texting and making calls), I left email, WordPress, and Facebook chat.
I’m on day three and feel like I’m missing out on everything going on on Facebook but I’m becoming more okay with that. I feel a little less frazzled and distracted. I’m sure that going camping for 5 days will help me get out of the habit of checking my phone all the time.
One of the things I’m trying to replace phone time with is reading. I’ve slowed drastically in my book consumption since getting pregnant and now that I can often have one hand free while nursing Wallace, I can manage to read a book. I’ve finished The Mockingjay that I started a few weeks ago. I also finished Shades of Grey (not the 50 varieties) that I started while pregnant. I’ve now got The Mysterious Benedict Society with me for nap time, which I also started while pregnant.
I’m hoping to ease myself into this and actually become more present in the real world. Wish me luck!