It’s been one of those days where it’s 8:30 and I’m just now eating dinner. Leftover noodles and steamed broccoli…
I haven’t wanted to write much lately, though I always feel better if I do. My cat dying at the end of January was really hard for me, as well as Wallace. Wallace is approaching 5 and his behavior has been very challenging. For instance, today he had two huge meltdowns that included hitting and kicking and lots of yelling. It ate up all our energy and my time to get my work done.
I’ve been busy getting my Amazon inventory back up, going to Chicago for court for my 8 year old workers comp case, teaching and doing yoga, and of course parenting and doing all those adulting things. Oh right, and I’ve met someone…
I have only had one relationship since having Wallace and overall have had many cases of the Lonelies over the years. I have been on multiple dating sites, playing their swipe games and having little conversations, but nothing so much as an awkward date. A fellow SMC friend told me to join one more site back in January, so I did. I wasn’t expecting much, but some conversations were happening. Then someone messaged me and we immediately clicked despite all intentions for being just mom friends.
Conversation flowed, we moved to text, and there was a little flirting going on. An opportunity presented itself for us to hang out without our kids and we met up for a movie. It was cold, I hadn’t been to a movie in 5 1/2 years, and we’d been talking so much already that I figured a movie would be alright. We talked a bit during the movie so I had to keep leaning in to hear her, she hugged me after, and when I got in my car I realized I was twitterpated. She told me today that my body was angled toward her the whole movie and she thought I was going to hold her hand. I had no such plan, but clearly this was not going to be just friends!
It took a while for us to get to hang out again as we both have a kid we are the sole parent of and jobs and lives. We managed a cafe meet up the day before I left for Chicago. We talked for over an hour, which was too short, followed by a hug, which was also too short. We’ve talked about some big subjects already, such as how another baby is in my future and she is not very into that idea, parenting, relationships, and Buddhism. We have managed to make more time to see each other inbetween work and picking up kids and before yoga; just about any moment we can make happen.
I could write a whole post about our first kiss and the instant homesickness we both feel when we part. It’s barf bag quality 😉 I was pretty convinced these kinds of feelings weren’t going to happen for me, either because I’m incapable of them or I missed my chance, but they are and I loving it. We are proceeding slowly with lots of authentic communication, flirting, and found moments.
That’s all for now as I am tired and still have work to do. Hopefully I get back into the habit of writing here and come up with a nickname for my new mom friend. Since she goes to bed really early, I should use this time to write more.