I’ve been here over four months now. I’ve been at this job with this family the whole time. It was a challlenge in the beginning. The kids weren’t in school and there was no structure to our days. I wasn’t given any run down of what to expect, family rules etc, and I did ask for them. It hasn’t gotten any easier. I pretty much dread it every week. I am exhausted from it and feel like I’m not enough. I have been a nanny for a long time and I have never felt this innefective. Everything is a fight and I am constantly just trying to keep them this side of chaos. I have to protect Wallace constantly, and I am that mom that will let him fall at the park so he figures out his own abilities.
But because I am working for my friend, I feel trapped. I don’t want to abandon her. I can’t just find another job and give her a month’s notice. She seems completely oblivious to how her kids behave because she uses bribes and negotiating and lets them get away with things much below their ages. I’ve attempted to talk to her, via email, about her youngest and ask her input on how to work with her. Instead of even looking at what I sent her, she told me I need to make sure to feed her more. Um, that’s not the problem! I make sure to get food in them evert 2-3 hours max.
I don’t know what to do about all of this. I have to have a job, but I am barely scraping by with this as we are. I’m hoping the perfect job will just pop up in front of me. I am even interested in putting Wallace in childcare of some kind if it means not hating my job while making enough money to support us.