Though I prefer to not have this blog password protected, I don’t tell people about it. I believe my dad knows about and could easily find it since I used his computer for so long. I don’t usually tell in person friends and definitely not family that it exists or how to find it.
Well, I had mentioned it to L, maybe because it is a pretty big part of my internal life, and then I accidentally mentioned wordpress. She guessed at some key words and found it! She read the most recent post at the time. There was a picture at the bottom and she realized she had found it. She didn’t think she actually would or that it would be so easy to tell.
L stopped reading after that and let me know she had found it. She felt like she had invaded my privacy though she does want to read it. I wasn’t mad or upset, seeing as she wouldn’t have known about it if I hadn’t told her it existed, but asked if she really wanted to read my diary and how she would feel about that. I highly doubt she will continue reading without my blessing and the password.
I am not sure how to approach this. I have over 3 years and 400 something posts on here. I have always written openly and hated having to password protect my blog for a few months. There is a lot of raw writing and vulnerabilities laid out – my weakest moments and trivialities.
So, what do I do? How do I approach this? I care a lot about L and believe this is definitely not a fleeting relationship. I feel like she has missed out on Wallace’s first two years and want to catch her up. It is also a lot of material! Any ideas or thoughts for me?