I’m taking two online classes through the community college that I need in order to become an IBCLC. The school I wanted to go to for it lost their federal accreditation, so financial aid or federal student loans are no longer options. I could go if I took out a private student loan for the cost of school plus living expenses. That doesn’t seem like a smart idea financially and especially with not knowing anyone and it being a big move. I can take distance courses through another program for 1/20th of that but still would need the science classes and the exerience hours.
I work a few afternoons a week babysitting for a friend because getting a 30 hour a week retail job is not compatible with paying for or scheduling childcare. A full time job (I know of one option I could apply for) could mean regular hours but still paying a ton for childcare and being away from each other a lot. I need income but don’t know how to go about juggling it all and not having someone else raise my child for me. If I had a full time job, I would not have the time to put into school and my goal of becoming an IBCLC.
I live with my dad who doesn’t talk to me, isn’t around, and just offered to pay for me to live elsewhere (if I had steady income) so his girlfriend and her kids could move in. He would then talk to me less, see Wallace less, and I would feel like I was paid to not bother him. It would be a glaringly obvious repetition of his past habit of ignoring family for a relationship.
I would love to not live here but need income. I would love to live far away from my family. I would love to be self sufficient and not need food assistance. I would love to be an IBCLC but the path I had decided on is no longer an option. There has to be a solution that I am not seeing. There has to be a way for me to make this all work but right now I am stuck.