I have something to admit. I’m not doing okay. Every joint and muscle in my feet, legs, back, and hands ache and burn. I am so tired when I wake up, even if I got good solid sleep. I took a shower just now and want to curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep.
This has been going on for over two years, though this week is one of the harder ones. I went to a doctor two years ago. She ran a couple tests that had confusing results and then gave me a referall to a podiatrist that I didn’t waste my time at. I need to try again to get a doctor to help me. If I went today, I would probably just start crying.
It feels like admitting defeat. I have always been so full of energy and could do anything. I used to bike 10-15 miles a day and go out dancing after. I am currently dreading folding laundry, going to work, or washing the serving bowls and trays from the party yesterday. Something has to change because I can’t keep doing this.