I don’t get to write enough because I am so busy with work, parenting, doing all the household things, yoga teacher training, and instagram. I really need to do less instagram, but whatever, it keeps me feeling more connected.
Except, right now. Right now I am feeling overwhelming lonely. I have not been hanging out with any friends regularly, the people at work don’t really like me and it’s obvious, my mom is still flippant, and I don’t have anyone keeping me company with a perpetual text conversation. I feel like it is just me, with no one really giving a shit and backing me up. Parenting right now is challenging and I’m sick to boot. I’m on a couple dating sites, but it is all just the same people and a few short lived conversations.
So, that’s where I’m at right now. Everyday blending with the next, trying to get through each moment, and felling very alone and on my own. It’s just me and I’m losing hope that will change.