Just Me

I don’t get to write enough because I am so busy with work, parenting, doing all the household things, yoga teacher training, and instagram. I really need to do less instagram, but whatever, it keeps me feeling more connected.

Except, right now. Right now I am feeling overwhelming lonely. I have not been hanging out with any friends regularly, the people at work don’t really like me and it’s obvious, my mom is still flippant, and I don’t have anyone keeping me company with a perpetual text conversation. I feel like it is just me, with no one really giving a shit and backing me up. Parenting right now is challenging and I’m sick to boot. I’m on a couple dating sites, but it is all just the same people and a few short lived conversations.

So, that’s where I’m at right now. Everyday blending with the next, trying to get through each moment, and felling very alone and on my own. It’s just me and I’m losing hope that will change.


About JennP

Single mom by choice, lesbian, natural living, parenting, car free, Chicago.Thank you for reading and feel free to leave a comment!
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8 Responses to Just Me

  1. bumbismom says:

    If IG helps you feel connected, then you should not give that up. It sounds like a really busy time that feels very isolating and I hope that with the holidays approaching you will be able to connect with friends and/or family in the area. It can be very difficult. Online connections can often be very helpful in keeping us connected when the people in our everyday lives feel so distant. Sending lots of positive vibes.

  2. JennP says:

    Thank you. I wish that this time of year would be a positive factor for me, but I’m dreading it all. I’m pretty sick right now, so I doubt I will be going to thanksgiving. None of my family really know me and I will have to interact with people who support racist, homophobic, bigoted politicians and policies. I decided last night that despite my need to work on studying for my yoga training, that I will start reading before bed everynight with my tea. Books are comforting to me, and a distraction, which I haven’t allowed myself since starting this job.

  3. I echo bumbismom. Keep with IG if it helps you feel connected – I know I enjoy your IG posts. Also, I just want to say that I also enjoy when you write here too. I know it’s not the same as in-person connection but I really do appreciate you!

  4. JennP says:

    I wish I had more time to write on here. Maybe if I spent less time flipping through instagram… lol

  5. Karasone says:

    FWIW, i just discovered your blog and Iā€™m a SMC pregnant with my first kid. Reading your blog helped me to feel connected. šŸ™‚

  6. JennP says:

    Oh, yay! So glad you found me. I started reading blogs about 9 years ago while recovering from surgery. Back then, I found a lot of lesbian parenting blogs, but only a couple smc ones. Would love to know more about your journey šŸ™‚

  7. Yes definitely, if IG is helping, even a little, dont give it up…. yet lol. Every time i read one of your posts, I wish we lived in the same town, state, country! ā¤

  8. JennP says:

    Same continent would be nice! We’d mesh well.

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