Ten years ago I started this blog as a place to chronicle my journey to becoming a single parent by choice. I remember sitting on my bed in my room in the house I shared with others while I chose a name and format and wrote my first post. I was preparing to move halfway across the country and waiting for my ovulation test to come up positive to get in one attempt before the move (it would be 10 months until I could try again).
I don’t write nearly as often as I used to, but it’s still my space. I don’t have to answer to anyone’s algorithms or write to any specific audience. At some points I wrote a ton, at least a post a day, while other times I went months between posts. But I have always returned here. There have been many posts in my drafts that I meant to finish and posts I’ve written only in my head. Sometimes I avoided this space because I didn’t want to face the things I needed to to process.
I’ve learned a lot from having this blog. Just in the act of getting myself to write but also from finding others on similar or parallel paths and following their blogs. But what I have enjoyed the most, no matter what subject I’ve written about, is that I have a record of my thoughts and my life. And of that of my journey to motherhood and the early yesrsbof my child.
I’ve had some rough spots on this blog. I had multiple doctors and a busy-body report me to child protective services in the first year and a half of Wallace’s life. At that point I felt it necessary to put passwords on most of my past and current posts. When that all settled down I went back to no passwords for a while. Then I had a former coworker who found my blog and decided to gossip about me around the office after I left. So I went back to passwords (and I really hope she’s given up by now).
I don’t forsee closing the blog or abandoning it, but I don’t know what the future of it is. It hasn’t become a weekly habit again, which would be nice. And I am conflicted about how to balance my child’s privacy and my storytelling heart. Lately any pictures shared of them have been with their permission, a bit obscure, or under the password. I am open to suggestions and conversation regarding this.
Anyway, I have nothing fun or exciting to do for the 10th anniversary of this blog, but I wanted to mark it! It is an accomplishment and noteworthy in my life. Especially as things have been very tumultuous and ever-changing. So, thanks for being here, the long ago regulars and the lurkers and the friends.