I don’t want to write anything today. I don’t want to be introspective or funny or an open book. I want to not have to deal with my life right now.
I get like this more often than I’d like to admit. When life gets emotionally overwhelming, I tend to pull away from anything that makes me think about it until it all feels less intense. I will distract myself with my phone or cooking or other peoples’ issues. I do know that writing helps me, and I often get great feedback and support on here.
Talking it out helps when I’m too stressed to write. It has to be someone who knows what all is going on and gets me. I have a few friends to hash it out with but not someone fully invested in the nuances of my life. It’s like having a snack when you really need a hardy meal.
So that’s where I am when I don’t write regularly. I am working through my things as best I can and will probably come back with a wopper of an update when I can make sense ot it all with words.